high as always.
fighting two demons at onceaddiction and eating disorders are very powerful and insidious illnesses. Sometimes I underestimate the strength and ability they have to pull you down faster than you can realize. I want to live. I want to fight this and i know I can but its difficult right now.
I thought I’d have the strength to say no to that first drink, that first hit, but it became a downward spiral.
I never thought I would be sitting on restroom floors preparing a shot of the drug that almost destroyed me before I got help.
I’ve dropped 20 pounds since leaving eating disorder treatment on October 24. Lately I haven’t eaten anything but diet coke and the occasional nibble off something low calorie.
If anyone is struggling with the same issues and would like to talk email me at firstname.lastname@example.org